Last week I was on Kaua'i for several reasons.. the "wedding of the year" and to do a bit of work. It's always an interest balance; mixing work with play. And I wish it could be easier. Or rather.. I wish I could just play. But the last few months have been the most stressful time of year for me. Hence, the lack of posting.
And that got me thinking.
I find it funny how life can be perpetuated through social media. Don't get me wrong, I've been having fun.. like this Kaua'i trip. A nice little island hop adventure. We had an epic Bachelorette party, the Johnson wedding was amazing, and we went on a few adventures along the way. And you can see that in the photos. I'm not trying to put on an act or inauthentic life [and hope you guys see that too.] But I have also been putting a lot of time, energy, and tears into some recent projects [something you guys don't necessarily see.] The kind of projects that demand my full creative attention and make me so stressed out I scream in my pillow at night. No joke.
And sometimes I think social media can be misleading. We are constantly trying to uphold an image and perpetuate a lifestyle nowadays. Similar to celebrities [which seems like such a pain in the ass in my opinion] but it's their job and they get paid to look and be a certain way. But not all of us get paid to look and be a certain way. Yet we engage in this self-promoting behavior anyway. I look at my Instagram or blog and realize I do it. I'm not going to put up a photo I think is bad or doesn't exemplify my surf, fashion, travel lifestyle. Granted.. this is my livelihood and how I pay the bills. But it's a nasty little beast. And sometimes I don't want to think about it or put myself out there like that. Our generation has become a part of this self-promoting machine. And I so badly don't want to be a part of it. But if we aren't apart of social media we are in some ways.. left behind. Right?
So I guess I'm going to get left behind for a while. I am going to take a much needed break from the social media world. I'm going back to the Big Island to unwind and I don't want to be concerned with what I am putting out there. I just want to be present, where I am, in that moment [especially for the holidays.] And I really want to focus more time on meaningful work. Work I have been wanting to do for a while but never had the time as I tried to manage my day to day "social interactions."
This post has taken an unexpected turn. Haha. Yes, it was supposed to be about my recent Kaua'i trip but shaped into something entirely different. And so I apologize to those who were looking for a whimsical story behind the photos. But I guess this is a story behind the photos.. and what's going on deeper in me too.
So bye bye for now as I continue to Island Hop and try to keep it real.